Well well well...

Forgive me , I'm too bored. :/
Okay so the thing is , I forgot my username and password , then I was like SHITTTTT ?! But after thousands times of trying , finally I get to log in. TADAAAA and here I am , writing shits.
I've wasted months staying in the house as a maid to serve DAI XIU JIE and DAI XIU YEH , I'm angry , so what? Nobody cares. I can't go to work because I've got no transportation , I rather die to be fetch by THAT PEOPLE. 

And so I went to have my undang test and driving lessons by walking to the shop , it takes me half an hour , and every time when I reached , the uncle be like " why are you sweating in the morning?" And every time when I saw parents fetched their son or daughter to the shop , I can't stand it to feel envy for how lucky they are. I even hear complains say that they need to go for work after it and they're very tired , well FUCK YOU. Why is my life so much more different than my friends? I hate it when people say that their parents only allowed them to go out twice a week. Hello? Twice a week isn't enough for you? I can't even hangout once a year! People just won't stop complaining , even I. But I won't asked my parents for permission to go out , because I know the answer is no. Even today , I've still need to walk to shops to photostat paper , and it takes me an hour to reach home. 

Every morning I'll stay in my room for hours just to wait YOU go out , it makes me feel disgust just by looking at your face , but you just won't stop demanding me to do this and that. I feeling like scolding your wife in the phone when she tells me her life with her son and daughter in Australia , I feel sick. Why can't u come back and take care of your husband? You just run away to Australia and leave him to us? How can u be so selfish? Have you ever thought about how much trouble he causes? You also say that he's very bossy and nobody is right except him , then why can't u come back and settle him yourself? I can't always protect my mum from him , what if he gets angry suddenly and hurt my mum? Everytime I have to calm my mum when he asked money from her , my mum is not bank , she needs to work to get paid you asshole ! My money is all spent in paying newspaper fees and buying gas , you're the one that's reading newspaper , why aren't you paying? I did not asked a cent from my mum , my dad always ask me , did mum owe you money again , how much? I always say never mind , but he'll stuck money in my hand and say thankyou to me. Everytime I hold my tears telling myself to be strong and not to cry in front of dad , I don't want to worried them , I'm scared that they might divorce , I don't want my family to broke apart , I won't be able to forgive myself. 

Now I'm hiding in my room again because he's home , and he just yelled my name again , so I better go downstairs and do what he asked , bye my bloggie , I'll be back.